“I’m Not a Bad Person – Why Me?”

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Thought for today:

Compulsive debtors can have the best intentions before they get to DA. They are sometimes “double winners” – members of other Twelve Step fellowships before they get here, who are actively working their programs.  Some are church regularly to seek spiritual renewal.  Others are active members of civic communities, or parents struggling to feed their children.  The disease of debting strikes a wide cross-section of society.

Debtors aren’t bad people, we just have a disease, with symptoms of confusion, chaos and drama around money.  Left untreated, what follows is usually feelings of powerlessness, loss, and regrets of years wasted.

Members shares:

“I am an underearner.  When my salary dropped by 20%, I had to charge diapers for my child on my credit card.”

“I keep praying for peace, but the creditors keep calling anyway.  I’m not a bad person… why me?”

“I was always active in my fellowship. which made my secret, my debt, all the more confusing to me.  How could this happen when I work my program so hard?”

Acceptance:

When we discover we have the disease of debting, we need a new level of surrender.  Even though others don’t understand, sanity will return when we reach out to other compulsive debtors.

We need to give ourselves permission…

…to grieve
…to have a voice
…to care for our needs and get better
…to not ride on the roller coaster
…to acknowledge our feelings
…to hope
…to have a good life

Ask:

Do I give myself permission to work DA?

Meditation for today:

Life has a way of getting our attention.  Opportunities for growth present themselves all the time.  It takes courage to admit we need help to get through them.

If we allow ourselves to be imperfect, we are free to explore a new path.

Affirmations for today:

“I will share about my circumstances with someone who understands the kind of person I’m trying to become.”

“I give myself permission to be imperfect.”

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